Although I Missed You Being Born,

I already love you so much.

Kaden

 I wanted to be there when you were born but you had other ideas. You decided to shoot out of your poor momma like a little torpedo. You were born just 1 hour after her water broke. I guess you just couldn't wait to see your new world and meet your mom, dad, and grandma.

You were born at 3:50 a.m. on February 12, 2011. I wanted you to wait till my birthday, which was only a week away. Again, you had other ideas. I still consider you the best birthday present. Ever.

I met you about 15 hours after you were born.

I drove about 54 miles to meet you. It took me just over an hour. I drove a bit faster than the speed limit, but don't tell anyone.

The sky was so beautiful as I was driving up. It was pink and blue streaks. It was about 43 degrees when I left Pueblo, and 46 degrees when I got to up to Colorado Springs. That's kind of weird, cause usually it's warmer down where I live.

I didn't get to meet your right away after I got to the hospital. Your grandma and her boyfriend were there with you.

Only one visitor could go in at a time with either your mommy or daddy because you were in the NICU. Don't worry about that too much though. Your oxygen levels were a bit low, but the doctors assured your parents that it was pretty common in high altitudes.

You have the longest toes and fingers. Your lips are absolutely beautiful. You're perfect.

I can't wait to get to know you in the coming years.

I've known your mommy for over 10 years now. She is one of my very best friends.

I want you to know that she has wanted you for so long now. I know she loves you from the very bottom of her heart. She will take care of you like you deserve to be taken care of. 

You and Momma

I haven't known your daddy very long. Just over a year now. I don't know him as well, but I do know he takes good care of your older brother and sister. He loves them like crazy.

You're in good hands.

I look a little high here, but it's only because I cried so hard when I found out I missed your birth.

He Probably Will Not Be A Book Critic

Or make it past 6th grade.

I Am Devastated That Boca Java

is going out of business.

I mean, where the fuck am I going to get good coffee now??

Pink ~ Fucking Perfect~

"Fuckin' Perfect"

Made a wrong turn once or twice

Dug my way out, blood and fire

Bad decisions, that's alright

Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood

Miss knowing it's all good

It didn't slow me down.

Mistaken, always second guessing

Underestimated, look I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel

Like you're less than fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel

Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me

You're so mean when you talk

About yourself. You were wrong.

Change the voices in your head

Make them like you instead.

So complicated, look how we are making

Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game

It's enough, I've done all I could think of

Chased down all my demons

I've seen you do the same

(ohh ohhhhhhh)

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel

Like you're less than fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel

Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me

The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear

The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer

So cool in line and we try try try but we try too hard

It's a waste of my time.

Done looking for the critics, cos they're everywhere

They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair

Strange ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that, why do I do that (why do I do that)?

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel

Like you're less than fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel

Like you're nothing than you're fucking perfect to me

(you're perfect, you're perfect)

Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel

Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me.