I read this today.
You know when you're least expecting it and something jumps up and slaps you in the face. With a brick. Hard?
That's what happened here.
That 1st paragraph spoke to me so loudly that I cannot help but hear it. There's no way to ignore it.
Here I am. And I need to do something about it.
About a year ago my depression was getting so bad I was making everyone in my family completely and totally miserable. I was sad, angry, bitter, so tired, and weepy all of the time. It never let up.
While I was being being evaluated they also diagnosed me with some other stuff.
- Bi-polar disorder
- General anxiety disorder
- Attention deficit disorder
- Obsessive-compulsive disorder
- Post traumatic stress disorder
Yeah. Heavy stuff. I may even be forgetting one or two, but these are the major ones so I'm sure you get the idea.
Then it seemed like I was even worse off. All these disorders weighed so heavy on me. I was so much more miserable. I don't have insurance so my treatment options are very limited. What I'm taking doesn't seem to help much. Nor does the one on one therapy I'm partaking in.
I haven't worked outside of the home in about 3 years. Really I haven't done much of anything outside of the home. Or inside either, if truth be told.
My family has had to pick up a lot of slack because I haven't been able to.
The point of this? I think I got off at the wrong exit on this Highway of Life.
This is not me. I am not a victim. It is only my fault that I am 28 (for the 4th year in a row) and have done almost nothing with my life.
What am I going to do?
I'm going to get back on that highway and make sure I find the right exit.