Tuesday, February 7, 2012

I Finally Had To Step Away.

I agonized about this for a long time.

I finally just had to do it.

Sometimes it hurts.

But not very much and not for that long.

This really surprises me.

We were "best" friends for a very, very long time.

Even when we lost touch for those years in the middle when you moved away, you were always still a part of me.

I was so happy when you moved back a few years ago.

I'm sorry we weren't able to keep our friendship alive longer.

I tried.

I tried so hard.

But you were always too busy.

You always had better things to do, other people to see.

You drove (still do) by my house at least 3 times a month and I was lucky to see you even once a month.

You nonchalantly cut me out of your wedding. You said it was because you wanted a smaller wedding.

What's worse is you didn't even tell me when you decided to do this. You dropped it like a bombshell when we were all at the bridal store looking for dresses.

You always took. You rarely gave.

I felt like such a junior high-schooler in this relationship.

I'm too old for that. Life is too short.

I thought it would be hard.

But really, it was easy.

I feel so much relief.

Goodbye, my friend.

I will miss what I thought we had.


Jenn said...

I've been there--it hurts--but it is also a big relief to let go.

Cheers, jenn

Lin said...

We've all been there. And sometimes when I look back, I think "What did I do wrong?"--and I have to remind myself that it wasn't me. Remember that, pally.

It's not you.

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